Trent has cancer. We find out more soon.

Today the anxiety has kicked in, and honestly I think a lot of it is due to the police officer that was killed here last night. Everywhere on my newsfeed I keep seeing this poor man and thinking about his family and I become obsessed and hope they are going to be ok. I can't watch the news ever because when I do I take the hardships to heart and I can't let it go. I empathize with them to a unhealthy degree, or in other words, I'm an empath.  I can't even imagine what his wife and kids are going through right now. My heart aches. Even yesterday I was getting frustrated over stupid little things the kids were doing. When in reality, they were just being kids and I have to realize they miss their parents and are worried about their dad. They were cute to come help take care of trent. Faith kept saying she was going to take care of him. She laid by him, and the other kids kept checking in on him. Hannah helped give him his medications.

The dr, called and told us Trent has a cancer that is even more rare than Thymoma. We have to do more testing to find out what treatment he needs. The waiting game is the hardest. The dr. is still optimistic but I think it sucked that it wasn't what we were hoping for. This type can easily turn into non Hodgkin's lymphoma because it is part of the lymph nodes. That's usually just medical mumbo jumbo and it's easier for me to tell people "Yes, Trent has cancer, we find out if he needs treatment soon." that makes sense and that's all I ever should've said in the updates because I confuse the crap out of people otherwise lol.


On Tuesday we have to go get more testing, and see a respiratory therapist, and an ENT for his voice.

Trent is already bored so I told him we could play LAST WORD. If looks could kill.....

In the meantime I am just going to stuff my face with m & m's... until I found that someone ate all of them except the red ones. (I am allergic to the red ones) someone's going to get their butt kicked. jk

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