The Calm Before the Storm

Where do I begin? I have been trying to stay strong and I'm doing pretty well actually because this is the calm before the storm. I really have no idea what we are getting into. I just know it will be a journey. I'm amazed and in awe at how many people have asked how to help, at how many friends and loved ones have come up with ideas to raise money. Of course I always hate accepting things from people because I would rather be giving than receiving, but it has been so humbling. My friend set up this account so people could donate - http://www.gofundme.com/6acc5s'
 and every time I see someone donate my heart basks in gratitude.

I'm amazed at the generosity of people. Even just feeling of thoughts and prayers that others have been doing I am able to feel.

I am in debt to my Father on Heaven and all my loved ones.

     I was so stressed and trying to get the kids to clean and thinking of everything I needed to get done for school that I started to get raunchy with them. I finally sat on the floor in my bedroom and told them to

come sit with me.I told them that I would need their help and them to be extra good, I told them
 that their dad has cancer. Faith asked if he would die, and I had to explain that he would probably be ok, he will be sick and some people

 have died from cancer but we are going to be ok and they are too young to need to
 carry that on their shoulders. Hannah told me she would watch the kids so I could get my schooling done. She said she wanted to make cookies and sell them for Trent.

I have awesome kids. Austin's teacher texted, saying she was sorry to hear that Trent had cancer. Austin told her the other day. "My dad has cancer." Teacher-"what kind?" Austin-"I don't know, I just know its

 cancer." Hannah is doing an autobiography in class and I went to do hours at  the school for one of my classes

and noticed her timeline. It said "born 2003-------2014-found out dad has cancer" it's still surreal for us and
we are in denial and shock. When people ask Trent how he is doing he says good, because at this point he doesn't feel much. We are in high spirits and know that whatever lies ahead, we will be ok, thanks to all the
love and support we feel.